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Showing posts with label Paying Dues. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Paying Dues. Show all posts

Sunday, December 22, 2013

A Token in Honor of Tolkien

“Ash nazg durbatulûk, ash nazg gimbatul, Ash nazg thrakatulûk agh burzum-ishi krimpatul.” -The One Ring Inscription

Smoking a cigarette, on these New York streets.
Watching the masses pass;
While all the stress is expelled and retreats,
These lyrics slowly amass.

Every time the heart feels defeated,
And all hope has been conceded;
The mind contemplates Frodo and the ring,
Such a small stature and such a tiny thing.

Yet, with the possession of the Golden Ring of Power;
Even the insignificant, threaten the eye in its tower.
Every time the mind focuses and creates a heartfelt rhyme,
The spirit feels as if it escapes the pursuit of the Nine.

Taking the heirloom of the poetic kinsmen, passed down,
The conscious sets out for Mount Doom – there it is bound.
Drifting along, in darkness and silence;
With little signs of bloodshed or violence…

{ { On September 23, 3018, he departed in the dead of night,
Travelling past Tom Bombadil and a barrow wright.
He arrived in the eve, at the village of Bree;
Feeling his spirit, becoming the ring`s devotee.
Resuming his quest, he moved and was pursued non-stop;
Until the night he made camp at a location called Weathertop.
It was there he received a deadly wound,
And felt his life flee as eyes swooned.
The impending death, however, would not prevail –
He was spared, thanks to Elrond of Rivendell;
Through the restorative powers of his spell,
The effects of the Morgul Blade – the elf would curtail.
After the council, he resumed his journey;
Which was a fortitude testing tourney.

In January, he entered the west gate of Moria,
Where the endless darkness consumed all euphoria.
His mystic companion fell, as they fled across the bridge;
He was overcome by sudden solace, his heart was a fridge.
Against the calamity which he was feeling –
Against the painful emotion – his character was steeling.
His company entered Lothlorien, his mind still reeling;
Possession of the trinket, he made attempts at concealing.
Lady Galadriel, however, would not be deceived;
Staring into her mirror, many things he perceived.
Though for his loss, he still grieved;
His pain, her words almost relieved.

Having proceeded, in February, from his company he strayed;
And at Parth Galen, by a friendly-faced foe, he was betrayed.
The fellowship, he felt forced to forsake;
Although in his departure, he felt his heart break –
Only Sam, he could not lose or shake;
Together the course through Emyn Muil they`d take.
In that maze, they met Gollum, and he saw his own visage;
So many similarities, in that distorted, wretched image.
In March, Gollum guided their march across the Dead Marshes;
Frodo`s existence, now, unraveled by the adventure`s harshness.
Broken, but committed, they pushed to Morannon – the impenetrable gate;
And at the vile sight – the entrance to a land without light – hiding, he cursed fate.
With a bit of blessed luck, the crew was brought to the window of the sunset;
Where the hospitable graces of Faramir, would be hard for them to forget.
Then again, he watched the same king he gave him a wound, upon the Morgul Vale;
He grew pale with fear, but from his purpose, his feet would not flee – nor derail.

Further along, in the depths of Shelob`s Lair,
There he understood true solitude and despair.
Still, hope remained – Wise Sam came to the rescue;
With bonds unchained – together they`d see the task through.   
Escaping dark servants and orcs, they arrived at the foot of Mount Doom;
And cast away their gear, while heading towards the sweltering room.
But even in Sammath Naur, in that chamber of fire;
Frodo gave in – to the ring`s spell – power`s lust and desire. } }

… Lady Galadriel`s voice rings in the ear,
The message sent, repeats perfectly clear:
“To bear a ring of power, is to be alone”
So the lips smile, and mouth attempts not to moan.

No matter how many friendly faces surround this mentality,
There always remains a loneliness which none seem to see.
They fail to understand how the heart can remain empty,
When (always) it is consumed by the One Ring of Poetry.
From its clutches, the mind is never free;
It circumscribes the spirit`s entirety – endlessly.

True pain felt when not writing,
No other stimulation is exciting.
The harder, the heart fights to disconnect;
The more life, feels incomplete and incorrect.

Whenever the sadness or depression, threatens to steal the joy like a crook;
The hand places the powerful and precious ring on,
And the body disappears – and the conscious is gone –
Hidden, concealed, undercover, and existing only within the pages of the notebook.

Composed By: A. D.

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Sweating Bullets

The poet started out that night with a few simple bars;
Outside his window, the only sound was passing cars.

“Soon they will arrive to torment -
The unseen voices, echoing without relent.
Insults falling in a steady torrent,
Ridicule calling leaving me spent.
To the paper I`ll run and hide,
In it`s leaves I`ll safely abide;
Till the verbal attacks eventually subside,
Within these verses, I must now reside.”

His life and soul, he would gladly return;
If only in doing so, he wouldn`t have to burn.

He tried to smile, all the time, throughout it all;
But the harder he tried, the harder he`d fall.

Keeping the feelings inside each sunlit day;
There they would reside; hidden away.
Each night, voices incessantly insulted him, groups of friends;
Their distant ridicule, which anointed him, knew no ends.  

With only his book to keep him company;
In his solace, he felt, already in purgatory.

He never felt an emptiness, which was so filling.
Slowly, his life`s dullness was becoming thrilling.

A tempest of torment and emotions filled his hollowed mind;
But, an onset of anguish, was the only feeling he could find.
The silence of the night, he had grown to fear;
For in the darkness, the voices became clear.

On this particular evening, after the darkness had set;
Silence was broken, with suicide`s calling, his hearing had met.

Whispering taunts in his sunken ears,
“Do it, you pussy” is all he hears.

Yet, his heart failed to complete the deed;
So, chants continued from the demonic breed.
“You fucking bitch” they, now, repeatedly did yell;
These relentless, restless nights, were his living hell.

 Closing his lids, still hearing their reprise;
And then came the flashes of hate filled eyes.

He stared at them, eyes shut, with a will of steel;
The fear of death, and of violence, he did not feel.

He lay steady and at the ready, to attempt to defeat;
Any demonic or human foe, which he might meet.
With all his might, he attempted to do what is right;
But with violent temptation, he fought a losing fight.

He was tired of being called a fearful coward;
His inert raging energy, had now been powered.

Up from his bed, his body was furiously sprung;
Like a bullet from a recently shot, smoking gun.
His hand grabbed the closest makeshift weapon.
From that night`s battle, he would not run.

A knife and a bat, infuriation - tremors in his hand
To their death, he would send the incessant band.
It was 3:30 am, and he was on the concrete;
No intention, or ideas, of peaceful retreat.
He saw not a shadow of a person in sight,
Met only with the sounds of the dead of night.

So his eyes filled with a flood of tears,
Experiencing - the worst of all his fears.
For all the visions and words the voices said;
Were only the ruminations, and creations in his head.

Composed By: Andrew Drucker

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Unyielding

Have these words caused harm
To any single one of you
Then I`d first ask forgiveness
For all that I verbally do

It`s hard (I truly know)
To let go of the past
Yet old wounds can heal
Like a bone set in a cast

If I were to reflect
The worst crime I can see
Is I run but never walk
Like water, at least mentally

That is one way I choose to say
My thoughts were often expressed rash
Anger caused within a moment
And into the future I would passionately lash

There was a time when arbor for wrongdoers
Was my most effective fuel
But feeding off pure hatred for enemies
Is the action of an ignorant fool

It was with this idea in mind
That I reset my poetic duty
Searching my heart to only find
Expressions of some verbal beauty

I prayed to God
To grant me the will
I took to the books
To refine my skill

-
Patience was born
-
No feeling forlorn


Now, though it still hurts
When others sneer and laugh
I still wish strangers the best
On their own chosen path

Into the white barren soil
I plant the seeds of my desire
Daily I tend to them and toil
With a will of steel and fire

-
 Never forgetting
-

Within the Leaves of Grass
There was a song of me
And from my mind - so crass
I soon became - so free

To meld into the air
And follow my destiny
Without one fucking care
I create my poetry.

Composed By: Andrew Drucker

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Dis

“Abandon all hope, ye who enter here!”
[“Lasciate ogni speranza, voi ch’entrate!”]
      
“Through me you pass into the city of woe:
Through me you pass into eternal pain:
Through me among the people lost for aye.”
-          Dante (Dante Alighieri; 1265-1321)

The darkness once consumed the sight,
Consuming the happiness in eternal night;
Filling the dreams with fearful fright,
Demonic nightmares, devoid of light.
Fighting despair with all the might;
Hoping for relief – shining bright.

Within the void of a dream -
No peaceful respite, to be seen.
Wandering lost in desperation in between;
In damnation, no salvation did gleam.
Deep in devoid, land of the unclean;
Trapped eternally, or so it did seem.

Till redemption shone from high, down;
Illuminating the ashen, blackened ground;
Penetrating the darkness once all around.
As an ear is enveloped by piercing sound.
The hopefulness that now surrounds -
Through God and Poetry, new life was found.

Composed By: Andrew Drucker

Saturday, June 8, 2013

“Just Keep Pushing” - Rene Descartes

Noticing there is no more hope,
When you let it die;
Forgetting why, living a lie,
And without aspiration begin to lope.

Shoulders hung down,
Desperation is allowed
To compile and surround,
Dejection is avowed.

Shouldn`t let the superficial
Issues, consume our routine;
Allowing things fractional,
Materialize as ends supreme.

Life`s fundamental element,
The one essence dominant;
Is relentless enthusiasm
Of endless optimism. 

Composed By: Andrew Drucker